I wonder.

I wonder why anyone likes the song "say something." Is whiney and annoying.
I wonder why I love chocolate so much.
I wonder who I'm going to marry and when.
I wonder if I'll like my roommates.
I wonder how long I'll live.
I wonder which friends I'll still be close with in five years...I bet I can guess.
I wonder if I'll go on a mission.
I wonder if the sixth season of parks and rec is good.
I wonder what Europe's like.
I wonder why I all of a sudden love sushi- I used to think it was disgusting.
I wonder who is reading this.
I wonder why some people are so nice and some are so mean.
I wonder when I'll let my hair go full gray.

Sweeping lettuce.

I learned something this week. I hate sweeping up lettuce. It sticks to the floor and it's nasty.
Sweeping up lettuce is comparable to the tedious and annoying things we have to do. It's just annoying and takes a lot of work and we get sick of it quickly. We all have our different things we may consider lettuce sweeping. Here are some of mine.
  Getting ready for the day early in the morning when I want to stay warm and cozy in my bed.
  Brushing my teeth at night when I'm tired.
  Picking out what to wear.
  Going to school.
   Traffic
   Being cold at church and starving. Worst  combo.
   These are some of the simple things that I just don't like. They can put me in a bad mood. They can annoy me. Just like trying to sweep up a piece of stupid lettuce that's stuck to the ground and just rolls around when you try to sweep it. And there's no way I'm picking it up with my hands.

Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof.

Not sure what the above statement means... but I'm happy!

I don't know for sure, but I think when spring approaches, I really do become a happier person. I can step outside without freezing my butt off, which naturally makes me a grump. I can feel the sun on my skin. It is good for me.

Sorry if this is a stupid post, I've just been thinking about how this season makes me feel goooooooooood.

Risky.

If you really care what others think, you're probably not going to take very many risks. I know both sides.
But. There is something about dances, especially stag dances. I don't have to impress anyone. And I don't care much about what my fellow school mates think of me because we graduate in a couple months and I'll never see most of them again.
At a stag dance, I risk it all. I'm terrible at dancing. I don't care. Sometimes I even enter the circle, where the good dancers show off, and I try to break dance. I also like to wear everything ugly and unflattering that I own.
This is where I'm best at taking risks. I should apply it to the rest of my life. You should too. Taking risks is fun. Learning to not get embarrassed so easily is a great thing.

Suzie Zurflu

I love this blog. This quote is short but it doesn't need to be long. It probably means something a little bit different to everyone.

"I don't want to want you."

Is there something that you love that you wish you didn't love? Is it a person? Is it chocolate? Is it shopping? I can relate to all three of those.
I love how blunt Suzie is. No fakeness. Fakeness is annoying. Too many people try so hard to hide their fears, weaknesses and sorrows. Sometimes it's better to just get it out. I'd sometimes rather have someone not like me and show it, than not like me but pretend to like me. Be sincere. And sometimes say whatever the heck you need to say.

You don't always have to be a people pleaser.

Death

The death of a loved one can't be easy. I know it can't.
I loved my dog. Really, he was a big part of our family. He did everything with us. Running, biking, camping, hiking, you name it.
The closest experience that I've had with death is when he died. It was such a sad time. He died in the summer after a long healthy life. He literally went on a long run with my dad the day before he died. When he did, it seemed so dramatic. It was pouring rain and we all bawled as we buried our close friend. I can't wait to see him in heaven.
If I felt that sad when my dog died, I can't imagine how it is to lose a family member. It happens all the time. People get cancer, they get in tragic accidents. Many things are not in anyone's control, and they are gone just like that. When I imagine if something like that happened in my family, I am motivated to treat them better. What would I want to have last said to them?
Just like we are told to live every day as if it's our last, I think we should also treat everyone as if it was their last day, or ours.

Work.

Work is satisfying. More than you would think. I don't care if I have to wear a dorky uniform and take orders all day because at the end of the day, I feel a great sense of accomplishment. If I feel this way about my current job, I can't imagine how satisfying it will be after a day of work when I'm doing what I love; when I'm doing something I chose to work hard for.
Like Steve Jobs said, you HAVE to find something you love and do it. Do it!

The future. It's a good thing.

Many of us are on the verge of going out on our own to college and other adventures. We're not taking our family, our closest friends, or our home sweet home with us.
I feel very excited when I think about how I get to meet tons of new people. No more walking down the halls of lone peak past the people we see everyday...some of them that we wish we didn't. I am excited to not see that guy that is a jerk to me every time I try to be nice to him...he's so immature. I won't miss walking past the cliques. The many cliques. Won't it be nice to get away from these things?
For me, high school has become stale. It's like a stale bag of chips. Too long in one place. The future looks fresh to me. Freshy fresh.

Don't fear the fruit.

Someone I know is literally afraid of bananas. This fear is clearly irrational. What's it going to do to you? Bite you? Make fun of you? Eat you? No. Quite the opposite. You can do all of those things to it, and it remains helpless.
I question how much of this fear my friend has is real and how much of it is an act. It's hard to know.
If something makes your heart rate go up, is it a fear? For my friend, bananas does this. For me, things like public speaking and being home alone at night do that. For me, that is something worth being afraid of.

Bricks.

Things you can do with bricks:
Use them as a plate
Make a stage
Throw them at something/someone.
Kiss them
Break your teeth on them
Crack an egg on them
Paint them
Put them in a truck
Shoot them
Microwave them
Drop them I'm a lake
Smash a banana with them
Use them as weights. Get swole.
Build a fire pit
Use them as bowling pins
Smell them. Mmm.

If I were a bird.

"If I were a bird, I would fly so high so that the only people near me would be the pilots in the sky. "
Sometimes I wish I was a bird.